Monday, June 25, 2007
Ahh, been a few crappy days... Thinking alot lately and i haven't really reach any closure within myself.... All i know is i've been placed in awkward positions lately, and i've been making wrong decisions. Well consequences only affect me, and it suck..
Also, it sucks to be helpless. When there obviously are THINGS, happening, but you dont know WHAT, any details or whatsoever. Its just that feeling where people need help but you cant help. I've been reduced to the point where i can do nothing, but pray. And it sucks. Where's that trust you so readily put on your lips everytime? Where's that expected level of openness? Perhaps its just my own expectations... Perhaps i can just dont care, and things will be so much better. My presense is insignificant truthfully, so stop doing things because others are doing it... but ask yourself, what you want! So close to giving up trying. So many trys, same results. I look in the mirror and all i can visualise is a praying man, always praying.
I guess, that's a truth, God wants me to pray, and expect no further than that. So I shall, and wait, because time is a miracle itself. On a brighter note... My pool seem to have suddenly improved!!! I did TWO 1-turn-clear on saturday. Meaning my very first turn of the game, i clear 8 balls :) Havent done this in ages!!! So happy sia, watching the opponent stand one side and watch me win, cant really do anything hahahaha... Once was in the morning b4 service, and once late late in the night, sunday morning actually... Opponents doesn't matter, they didn't participate~! :D
And oh, i have no school tmr, i needa reach school 2 hours later on wednesday, and i leave school 2 hours earlier on thursday! Hip hip hurray!
MoKky^ »
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"When you make a vow to God, do not delay in fulfilling it. He has no pleasure in fools; fulfill your vow. It is better not to vow than to make a vow and not fulfill it." Ecclesiastes 5:4-5
I seek only to have purpose-driven joy. I stop fighting and i lay down my rights, God's will be done :)
